Sometimes I get off track.
I found myself one day looking on Amazon for books and I just typed in Crazy Love in the search feature. I was interested in a negative review of the book. I was amazed at the length of one negative review written by an Adam T. Calvert. The gist of his comments was “This book is one of the most confusing I’ve ever read about the Christian life. Chan offers a mixed view of saying the Christian life is lived out of love and not out of fear-and-guilt, but then mainly tries through fear-and-guilt to persuade his readers to live the Christian life.”
I guess Crazy Love was confusing for Mr. Calvert and it was for me at one time in my life also.
Have you ever wanted to do something so much that you longed to keep doing it even though you had to stop and get on with other things in your day? I have heard of this happening to people who get addicted to drugs. I have heard of this happening to people who get addicted to porn. I have even heard of this happening to people who get addicted to playing computer games [not eating, not going to the bathroom, not going to work and not caring for their children so they can play].
Have you ever heard of someone addicted to praying to God?
Well, Pastor Chan introduces us to Grandma Clara in Chapter 6 and I just love how he describes her love for God.
“Every morning Clara would kneel by her bed and spend precious hours with her Savior and Lover; later in the day, just the sight of that corner of her bed would bring joy-filled tears and a deep anticipation of the next morning spent kneeling in His presence.”
She wanted to pray. It was the high point of her day.
This leads me to comment on Chan’s reference to the remarkable cycle. “Our prayers for more love result in more love, which naturally causes us to pray more, which results in more love…”.
This remarkable cycle is what we want to have in life, the hopeless desire for more love from our Lord and Savior.
Do we come to God out of fear and guilt as Mr. Calvert thinks?
I don’t think so.
We come to God as sinners.
I certainly had times in my life when I just could not understand why I would want a relationship with Jesus. Maybe it was “pay-back” because God had been so good to me. I owed Him something for all the blessings bestowed. That’s no fun. Maybe it was sheer guilt as I know I was actively sinning and I was inadequate and I had to make up for my inadequacies. That’s no fun. Sometimes I felt I was not going to get much for my devotion to God. I loved my earthly freedom and life as devoted Christian was not going to be fun. It was all about denial. Why would I want that? It was much more fun having the freedom to do what I wanted.
I just did not understand the remarkable cycle and the fact that God means for us to have the best life now. In this lifetime. He wants us to have life to the fullest.
Pastor Chan refers to this as “running to Christ”.
He is not describing our commitment to Christ as something that is born out of fear and guilt. He is talking about a Holy God who does not need us. God has plenty to do, yet he wants us to love Him and we should want to love Him. Because love for God results in peace here on earth.
You see “running to Christ” is really running to freedom.
Pastor Chan is not confusing. He knows that none of us is worthy of God’s love. “It is useless to attempt earning it; you will never feel ready….there really is a God who forgives everything and love [us] endlessly.”
He knows we have a choice.
We can “pay-back” God, we can serve God in guilt or we can just ignore God and have endless “fun.”
We don’t come to God as slaves.
Running to Christ is so much better, as we glimpse the corner of the bed and have joy-filled tears.
Just thinking about getting on our knees the next morning.